Tuesday, February 01, 2005

oh yeah

Good, good, good. This is what good feels like! I am so happy and proud of myself for swinging back into good behavior. It hasn't been easy (I'm always reminded of JuJu's post about how hard it is to turn the titanic. A series of imperceptible shifts of behavior. I was driving home from class today and getting myself all stressed out thinking about how much work I have and how lonely I am and how I will never achieve anything (blah, blah, blah....how's that for motivation?!) and how great it would be to stop at Tr@der Joes to get some treats to "keep me going" tonight. When I realized that, No! I didn't want to. I didn't have the energy for that kind of work. It is HARD to keep some patterns up, so why do it?

I also got up this morning and went for what has to have been the worst run of my life and lifted 3 heavy sets. Extra evening exercise won't happen till Thursday or Friday, if at all. Sorry to disappoint, I just have too much work on my hands.

Got on the scale this morning. Scary. It's up. Way up. I'm hoping it's water. I won't get back on till some of the stress has died down in my life--aka this time next week, I hope. It seems like every other normal person on earth loses weight when they are stressed. Not me. Oh no. My metabolism comes to a **screeching** halt. Can you hear that?!?


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