Thursday, April 21, 2005

Challenge Comfort

I have a list of things I want to write about. I have lists and ideas and energy. What don't I have? Time. When I first started losing weight I made a conscious decision that weight loss would come first over other things. Going to the grocery store for healthy food was more important than going to a non-required lecture, for instance. I don't have that luxury right now. Weight loss isn't number one in my world. Probably a good thing. It has become more of a habit. I get up and run in the morning because that is just what I do. Like how I brush my teeth and usually eat breakfast. Granted, I have my rebellious mornings. But for the most part, I'm getting the job done.

Which is to say, I am going through the motions. But my head isn't in it. My head is in books and papers and summer jobs. I'm not reflecting or journaling about the changes I've established and the ones that are still being incorporated. And isn't it the changes that define this game we call losing weight? It's a matter of calories in, calories out. But this equation is deceiving. It's not as easy as it sounds. To get it to work, we need to move significantly beyond our comfort zones. And these challenges requires head-work. Case in point: I've made peace with running in shorts. Because I had to. Because I refuse to give it up because I don't like how I look in them. Simple, right? Not quite. I did some heavy lifting in the self-esteem work-out room. And, like yoga, I have to keep practicing if I want to keep the esteem up.

I'm running late. Again. So much more to say about this. Another day.


At 12:37 PM, Blogger lainb said...

it's okay that weight loss isn't #1 on your mind...sometimes other priorities in life just have to take over...but you're still running, healthy & fit so that's great!


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