Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Elusive Emerging

And so I return with my tail between my legs.

I've been away. Conference for school/work and the wedding shower. And it wasn't pretty. It was sad and dark and lonely. My head, that is. I don't know what happened, or how it happened. I left with the best intentions and left without exercising or sticking to The Diet. Total off-plan-ness is not my style. I will usually at least get some exercise and at least eat vegetables. Even if they are chased with chocolate covered pretzels. Though I had some shining moments of positive choices, overall, it was bad. Like the old days kind of bad.

But it's done. I don't want to live like that. I won't live like that. I started exercising again on Sunday. I started eating better yesterday. I don't want to stop now. Although I struggle with The Diet, I really like a lot of this new way of living. And so, I challenge myself to stay with the new lifestyle changes for a week. The Dessert Challenge includes:

1) No dessert or refined flour for a week.
2) Exercise everyday. Yes, every.
3) 2 glasses of wine on the weekend.
4) Eating 3 meals a day
5) Writing down aforementioned meals.*
6) A successful Dessert Challenge will be rewarded with a new yoga CD. And maybe a cupcake.

*calories will not be totaled. This isn't designed to be a horror story. Just a tale about accountability.


Man, I was scared to write that! I'm glad I did. Denial is powerful. And, reading it again, I'm kind of surprised that the "bad days" were technically only 2 days, Friday and Saturday. My head still isn't in a great place, but most of my behavior has been since Sunday. So why did it feel so scary and dark?


At 1:24 PM, Blogger Kris said...

Welcome back Liz! I'm glad that you wrote that entry even though it was scary for you. It's cool that after you wrote it you recognized it was only two days and that put it into perspective for you. I know how long one weekend can seem when things get yucky like that. Good job on picking yourself back up and carrying on!


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